When I take a look at the last entries of the blog, I realize how far I was from imagining what my life was going to become in the following years. But I also realize that besides everything that ocurred, the part of me that have kept me going has always been there. I was not myself outside of the Internet, I lacked confidence in myself, and I am still discovering it.
I am writing this from a very different world than the one I used to live in when I started more than 10 years ago. The weather is different everywhere, violence and chaos are two things that are seen now everyday, maybe things have always been like this, only it hasn’t been this clear due to the limited technology. But we live in a mobile world now, a lot of people carry Internet in their pockes, and a camera...
Unfortunately I didn’t share my journey as I planned to do, but it is ok, it has been a journey of failures, of pain, of tears and even some blood has been spilled. Some functionality of the body has also been lost during the process. It’s funny the difference between your journey and how people sees your journey.
There are some who consider me successful because I have travel the world, because I have accomplised some things that look quite fancy, because I have had the opportunity to live in the most expensive country in the world. And technically speaking, I have delved very depth into server administration, scripting, databases; I have played some with app development for Android, Chrome extensions, and the last couple of years, my world is Machine Learning, and of course making the tools to gather and prepare the ridiculous amounts of data that you need for that one.
And that is what people sees, what they don’t see is that I am technically not just homeless, but stateless, and pretty broke. I haven’t been in my country in years or seen my family, including a new member that I am yet to meet but that I love very much already. I am always moving around, from place to place, carrying a laptop and my notes to keep on working, getting online from public wifi spots, libraries, and of course from friend’s houses many times.
But that is what my journey has been. I learned how to do many things, but I did not value them, I lacked confidence in myself. I made some terrible mistakes and as I result I fell off the system. But the one thing I had to handle first was the depression I fell into after losing contact with my child, which maybe biologically isn’t my child, but in my heart he still is. I have become extremely social, but if feel someone starts getting close to me, I unconciously get away so I am also quite lonely, but I call it solitude.
But enough of it. I have become very mobile, and I have documented everything that I have done in the last years. I think it is time to get all of that information out. Despite everything, I have reached stability internally, and I am happy. I want to share what I have learned so maybe others can find a more, hmm, profitable way to use the techniques, the code and the information that I have.
Oh yes, and more photographs are coming. I documented, I wrote scripts, and I took photos.
And so it begins...